I Was High-Functioning on the Outside, at War on the Inside

For 30 years, he fought a war inside his own mind without knowing who the enemy was.

In this gripping and profoundly honest conversation, author Jonathan Camp joins Lira to share his story of living with undiagnosed bipolar disorder, depression, and dyslexia while navigating a life of British privilege and a demanding career in law enforcement. He was a high-functioning, successful man to the outside world, but internally he was battling a relentless cycle of chaotic highs and crushing lows, a struggle he believed was a personal failure of willpower.

This episode is a rare, unflinching look inside the mind of someone grappling with complex mental health conditions. Jonathan provides a vocabulary for the invisible battles many people face, describing the "grey mist" of depression and the "sandstorm" of a bipolar crash with startling clarity. This is more than a story; it's a testament to the power of a proper diagnosis and the courage to seek help, even when you've been taught your entire life to handle it on your own.

This is a must-listen for anyone who has ever felt like something was wrong but couldn't explain what. You will discover:

• The 30-Year-Old Diagnosis: The incredible story of how Jonathan finally got the answers that explained a lifetime of struggle and why it’s never too late to get help.
• The Truth About Bipolar II: A raw, first-hand account of hypomania and the devastating crashes that follow, moving beyond clinical definitions to real, lived experience.
• Privilege vs. Pain: A candid discussion on why wealth and status are no defense against mental illness and how privilege can create its own unique barriers to seeking help.
• Rewriting Your Inner Narrative: Jonathan shares the powerful self-reflection tools he developed to redefine success, reclaim his peace, and turn his pain into a mission to help others.

This conversation is a powerful message of hope that will leave you with a deeper understanding of the human mind and the incredible resilience of the human spirit.

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